Happy Birthday, Tyler!
Wish we could have had a big party, like I like.
Sometimes I just sit and wonder, how on earth my life turned out this way and why it had to. This was definitely not in my plans. But I really hope getting out of Idaho will help me in moving forward. It was difficult still being there with all the memories and such. It will be nice to have a fresh start.
I am glad I was able to visit his grave one more time before I moved. I was surprised to see a headstone. From what I had heard from his family, they weren't planning on getting him one. I thought that was so sad. I understand that his family was ashamed, embarrassed, and confused by his death, but he still deserved a headstone. One of his sisters finally got one, and I'm grateful she did.
While I was at the cemetery, I read this talk. It was really informative, and I highly recommend it for anyone dealing with suicide. It gave some powerful insights and great comfort. I especially loved this passage,
"As I think about the worry and agony of those whose loved one has taken his or her own life, I find deep comfort and faith in the Lord’s promise and blessing to us who remain in mortality: “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:27.)"
Love you, Scrub.